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Well it has been an interesting time since i last wrote.  It has been the best of times and the worst of times (original huh).  I don't think there has ever been a point in my life where i have had so much joy and happiness yet also trial and confusion.  I have had some great experiences  such as youth conference, Prom, church, concerts, being a clown in a show (don't ask), and just being blessed.  But there has also be a lot of random things in my life that have gotten me stressed and down.  Finals are on and just things have not been going great.  Life is hard.  But life gives me so much.  I had an experience that did give me some light to my struggle and confusion.

My father and i were visiting an older lady from my church the other day.  She is a humble women who has gone through some tough times.  Her husband died over 3 years ago a she is raising a grandchild on her own do to some bad decisions by the little girl's mother.  She has been unemployed for some time now and is getting by in a struggle.  She also has four little dogs that whenever we come over to visit they jump on us and lick us to death.  (If anyone knows me i am a dog person so i don't mind).  Well she has had an amazing life, one i can not even compare to my own, but she is still pushing forward.  My father and i shared a message from a church magazine, from president Uchtdorf of the church, about getting through he storms of life.  While we where talking she looked with a worn at us and just said "sometimes you just want to put life on stop".  Now i know that this statement would normally just pass me by but it didn't this time.  I pondered that statement.  I thought how in this times of struggle in my life i just sometimes "want to put my life on stop".  Sometimes it gets hard even when i feel like it is hard to go on.  But the thing that gave a deeper meaning to me was what came to my mind after i thought about this.  It accrued to me that i can not stop.  I can not give up.  I know what i know and that no matter how dark those clouds of life get there will be a light.  Like this lady who has gone through so much, she has not stopped even if she wants to; she still goes on.

I know that i can not stop.  I know Someone is there to push me along the way.  I have been given so much to keep on going and i know i can make it.  Everyone can make it.